Some Saturday...

So... its been some time since i have blogged
And i'm surprised some people made noise
So i'll satisfy your desire for gossip
Here.
Then again
It's not really gossip.
Simply a day in my perspective.
Right?
Ugh.
I sound like some gossip guru...
Well.
The NY Debate Soc had their invitationals today
And I was juz chairing one room.
I guess you could say it was exciting yet boring concurrently.
This 1st round was fun.
With HCJC and VJC shooting verbose bullets at each other.
Me and Terry sittin there enjoying the carnage.
Giggling at girls with ultra short skirts.
Meanwhile trying to catch a hint of their bombastic language and economic jargon...
Man... was i suffering
What with 'veto', 'imperative', altruistic', 'over-specialisation', 'political arms twisting'
Yadda yadda.
Actually, i had no problems.
Suppose it was Terry who had the blanker look.
Oops.
Don't catch this post =P
What was funny was this VJ J1 guy.
He got 'POI'ed by ALL the Hwa Chong girls
And guess what?
He accepted everything.
Which was 4 POIs all together.
Guess he couldnt withstand their charm
Or venom rather...
He only missed one cause he turned around in time
Leaving the HC gal feelin pretty stupid.
After the adrenaline pumpin Round 1
Rounds 2 and 3 pales in comparison
I was begginin to feel idiotic reading the same thing again... and again... AND again....
So i shan't elaborate anymore.
Lest i lose more precious brain cells
IF i had any left...

Apparently i still had some 'emergency' reserves
Which were revived after i tickled Char abt her fashion sense.
Again.
Which was very fun i must say =)
Earlier today i was talkin to Ian
I figured there must be a reason for Ian being Ian
Right.
You dont get it.
Ian for being so extravagant.
He said.
He found no meaning in life
He needed something to substantiate his existence
Material comfort gave him his reason
He failed to find solace in the spiritual aspect
For 10 years.
I suppose he finally gave up.
I personally didn't agree.
Firstly, why i didn't do what Ian does
Is because i simply cannot afford to do so
Secondly.
For my existence, there must be some reason.
So i live to find the reason to live...
But then again.
I can only understand.
The immense feeling of loss
The big question of why?
What is the meaning of life?
What are we living for?
For education?
For our parents?
For our friends?
For fun?
For sex?
For fuck's sake?
FOR WHAT?

Sometimes...
I guess we all can't help but feel it.
The inquisitive need to know.
The sudden rush of nothingness.
Some say, that is what religion is for?
For something to focus and sate our hunger
But then again, the very same problem of loss we face now
Were faced by peoples of the past.
Then why can't religion be simply a tool created by Man to satisfy and quell the loss?
Because there is simply no credible evidence for the existence of a higher being.
Then again, i'm not denying His Greatnesses' existence
Just that we can never be sure.
Ironically, we are only sure because we BELIEVE it to be sure.
For all we know, there may just be that simple answer to this mind-boggling, never ending inquisition.
Faith.
It is what we live on.
Live for.
For now.
All in all.
I believe that religion is simply a ingenious farce invented by Man to give an answer to his own doubts about his existence.
Till then, we still go on living life.