About time after such a long hiatus that i regain some semblance of my life. Rein in that 'fuck-care' attitude, instead of letting everything flow through my open hands like water. It was completely mind-numbing, I was wallowing in emptiness.
I felt horrible at missing Eugene's birthday, so lost to the world that I couldnt even manage a 'Happy Birthday Sms' felt like an ass after that. Sent a half hearted one later. I didn't feel like a close friend at all. What was wrong with me? Am i so cut off i don't even bother? Or do i resolve to push blame aside.?
I was living on edge (literally at the edge of Singapore), everything was so disconnected to me that i snap back to reality in vague trances. Oblivious to all. Running away from my fears, yet i cannot escape the nightmares that haunt me so. Such rare times of serenity - stolen from me. Ghastly portents glimpsed from a macabre angle.
This is such a farce of a life.
Reconnect. Aaron.
9 years ago
